Four years ago I followed my dreams all the way to South Korea and this beautiful country has changed me more than I could have ever imagined. It’s hard to remember the person that I was so many years ago, but I can say with all certainty that I am nothing like her anymore. Sure, my core values are the same, but my mind is broader, my outlook is brighter and my heart is full beyond belief.
I’ve known we are leaving Korea for a while now. Dave’s role on his project is coming to an end and he was put on the “must move” list a few months ago, which means that our time on this project is up. Until recently we had no idea where we will be moving so it was easy to hide behind ignorance and stay in denial.
After weeks of agonizing waiting, Dave got his job placement email. His next job is taking us to Texas — we are moving to Houston at the end of May. For me, that means that my life outside of Texas is coming to an end.
Houston is new and exciting… and scary. Even though I am from Texas, it’s a huge state and I have honestly only visited Houston once. And that was to visit Dave when he was on a business trip!
While I can’t wait to get back to “normal” life, I know it’s going to be excruciatingly hard to leave Korea. It’s hard to cope with the reality that I am leaving and I don’t know when, or if ever, I will be back. It hasn’t set in yet, but I know it eventually will.
For now, I’ll continue to fantasize about trips to the grocery store, owning our own furniture and being just a few short hours away from my family and friends. “Future Meagan” will have to figure out a way to say goodbye to a country she adores and to some of the best people she’s ever met. I do not envy her.